Clutter

I call myself a perfectionist. So why is my life so cluttered? I've always tried to keep my house in order so when I go to bed at night, I know I'll wake up to a clean, neat space. But, I'm finding out the older I get the more cluttered my space becomes.

I see the messiness and think about how much I just want all of it to go away. But in reality, I know I'm the only one that can do that. Then I come to the realization that I'm just too tired to deal with it right now. So, I close my eyes to take a nap and hope, just maybe, it will be gone when I wake up."

I look around at all the things I couldn't live without and decide it's become the weight of my clutter. After 20 years, maybe it's time to "Let it Go....Let it Go..." I look in my closet of clothes that range from sizes 2 to 10 and wonder, how many more years will I try to stick with a diet, so I can fit back into my favorite size 2 dress... with shoulder pads!

I have found that I quickly get motivated when I know company is coming. A few days ago a group of ladies came to my house for a bridal shower. It took hours to clean and prepare. At the end of the day, I looked at my beautiful, clean house and smiled! Maybe I should throw a party every month so my house would get it's proper cleaning!

Since I call my self a perfectionist, I'll do the thing that I've always done, and that's make myself a To-Do List. This usually always helps me focus on one task at a time. It's very encouraging to finish a project then check it off my list. Of course, my clutter is always at the bottom of the list. I mark off the things I've accomplished, I'll add more to the list......but always keep my clutter last. I guess you could call me a perfectionist who procrastinates. Anyway, here's an example of my To-Do List. The heading says, "Things to Do Tomorrow " (that way I'm always on task). 1. Task, 2. Task, 3. Task, 4. Clutter. Then at the end of the day I'm able to pat myself on the back and say, "I got a lot of procrastinating done today!"

And then, I look at all the busyness I've gotten myself in to that's cluttering my mind and my life! I have so much to do that I don't know where to start. So, I just shut down mentally, frozen in place. I head to the sofa just to rest a minute and then 2 hours have gone by. I'm exhausted so I go to bed. Maybe it can wait until morning. The Bible does say, "Don't worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself." Matthew 6:34. Amen to that!

What I have finally determined to do is wake up each morning with a song in my heart. Then, I'll be thankful that I've been able to collect such wonderful memories in the clutter. I'll just wait for a day with nothing else pressing and tackle the mess...... one room at a time.

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!" Phillippians 4:13